Sunday, November 2, 2008

dust to dust

Today, on the Feast of All Souls, I stood at my own graveside, but I didn't shed a tear.

I thought about my daughter, who awaits me there, and I remembered her life with awe and gratitude. I missed her with an ache that will never leave my bones, but my heart is not heavy. It soars to meet her.

I looked at the descriptions cast in stone: husband and father, baby girl, wife and mother. The roles that will define us for all eternity.

I suppose it is an excellent practice to ponder the fact that we will all be dust some day. As I stood on the very spot where I hope my grandchildren and their grandchildren will kneel someday, begging mercy on my soul, I realized the truth.

It will all be over in a flash.

From the cemetery we stopped at Starbucks for something hot and chocolately. From there I went to a community theater audition. I was cast in the role of Maxine, who has good hair and make-up and is learning to tap dance.

Life is short, but it's grand. Live it up, and do much good with it.

Eternal peace grant unto them O Lord, and may Perpetual Light shine upon them. May their souls, and all the souls of the faithful departed, through the mercy of God, rest in peace. Amen.


Laura said...

Your post is lovely and I love the positive outlook you have on your daughter and allowing your heart to feel both sadness at losing her but joy at the knowledge that you will be with her one day.
I'm jealous of your community theater gig.
I used to do that stuff but I haven't since I was in my twenties.
Every time I think about it, I become overwhelmed at the thought of being that busy.
But life is short, right?
Perhaps next spring.

Kim H. said...

You are amazing - I absolutely am blown away by your courageous and inspirational spirit.

momto5minnies said...

(((HUGS))) ... you are a GREAT MOMMY and I love your outlook.