Monday, November 2, 2009

ashes to ashes, again

A repost from last year. This year, I'm Mary instead of Maxine. But life is still just as horrible and wonderful - and worth living - as it was then.

Today, on the Feast of All Souls, I stood at my own graveside, but I didn't shed a tear.

I thought about my daughter, who awaits me there, and I remembered her life with awe and gratitude. I missed her with an ache that will never leave my bones, but my heart is not heavy. It soars to meet her.

I looked at the descriptions cast in stone: husband and father, baby girl, wife and mother. The roles that will define us for all eternity.

I suppose it is an excellent practice to ponder the fact that we will all be dust some day. As I stood on the very spot where I hope my grandchildren and their grandchildren will kneel someday, begging mercy on my soul, I realized the truth.

It will all be over in a flash.

From the cemetery we stopped at Starbucks for something hot and chocolately. From there I went to a community theater audition. I was cast in the role of Maxine, who has good hair and make-up and is learning to tap dance.

Life is short, but it's grand. Live it up, and do much good with it.

Eternal peace grant unto them O Lord, and may Perpetual Light shine upon them. May their souls, and all the souls of the faithful departed, through the mercy of God, rest in peace. Amen.


GrandmaK said...

Touched my soul. Thank you! Also, congrats on you audition! Cathy

Kim H. said...

Beautifully written, Cathy! I hope you know you touch more people than you probably ever realize. Thank you for your gift of words.


momto5minnies said...

Beautifully written. Your words reveal so much ... thanks for sharing.

Do Not Be Anxious said...

I stumbled across your blog while looking through the list of Catholic blogs (I started my own last year). I read your book, commented on its site, and am still waiting for an audio version -- although I gave away about 25 copies of your book to friends already.
I'm glad you are happy.